My 2020 “resolution”

I have always loved New Year resolutions. There’s just something about a chance to “start over” that appeals to me. I use the new year as a reset button to get myself together as if I couldn’t have done that any other time of the year. The idea of the new year as a new beginning is socially constructed, yet so many (including me) buy into this idea.

Now that I am older, I am a bit more realistic with myself. Sure there are things I hope to accomplish in 2020, but I know better than to give myself a list of goals that I know won’t last. Instead, I chose a word that I hope will describe this year. The word I have chosen is “secure.”

This word might seem a big unusual to some, but it is something very important to me. By the end of this year I should be finishing all or most of graduate school, finding a new job, planning my wedding, and beginning my marriage. It is my hope that I find a sense of security in my career decision, my finances, and my new family.

I struggle with doubting myself. For some reason, I question everything to the point where uncertainty makes me sick. By strengthening my faith, I can proceed in confidence that everything is happening the way it should be. I do not want my perfectionist tendencies to get in the way of my happiness.

On another note, I am also experimenting with my diet to uncover potential food intolerances. I had quite a few health issues in 2019, so I am devoting a large portion of my time to my health. For the next thirty days, I will be going gluten free. As of right now, this is a temporary decision to see if eliminating wheat will change some of my stomach issues. I plan to update with a blog post later.

So there’s my magical resolution for 2020. It’s not an exhaustive list of goals I will undoubtedly fail to accomplish, but, rather, a hope that the new year will bring a sense of security. If any of you would like to share your word or goal for 2020, please share in the comments. I would love to hear it!

I hope 2020 is your best year yet! 🙂